Bennett 2 weeks old

Tonight I had the opportunity to sit and rock my little 4 year old to sleep since he is sick. As soon as I wrapped that blanket around him, lifted him up on my lap and laid him gently upon me, I was quickly reminded of the many times before I held him close and rocked him to sleep. My heart swelled, and I admit even ached stronger than it has for awhile. It is such a bitter sweet moment to watch your children grow.

As a mother we give our all to our children, holding nothing back. Every thought and action seem to be centered around them in one direction or another and we would have it no other way!



Brigham 2 weeks old

While we were in Oregon one night Bennett woke up coughing. He had not had a cough, so it was completely out of the blue. I recognized the cough as Croup, since my children have had it before. I went in to call him and make sure he was OK. I quickly noticed he was not breathing. I took him to Samuel and we both tried to calm him down and get him to talk to us. All Bennett would do was take short shallow breaths, holding his throat and at times he tried to put his hand down his throat like he had something lodged in it. We called the hospital in Burns OR to speak to a nurse and ask for their opinion. They said since we live 80 miles away and he was not breathing that they would send an ambulance and we were to start driving to meet them. We called our neighbors who lived 5 miles away and they came while we took off and started to burns. We met up with the Ambulance after about 40 miles. I got in the Ambulance with Bennett and Samuel followed behind. As luck would have it just a few minutes before we arrived at the hospital Bennett was breathing better and was stable. The Doctor did some x-rays checked him out and we were off.

We got home about 6 in the morning and tried to get a little sleep. He never coughed again.It seemed to go away as quick as it had appeared. That afternoon as I was running I was replaying the events in my mind, asking myself if I would have done anything different, knowing what I know now. Would I have gone to the hospital, would I have gotten in that ambulance with Bennett? Of course I would have! I would not have done anything different.



Emmaline at 4 months on her blessing day

I am so grateful for the Opportunity that my Father in Heaven has given me to be a mother here on this earth at this time. I love my three beautiful kids more than I can say.The joy and happiness they bring to me, I am always thanking my Father in heaven for. I would be lost without them and my life have very little meaning. I hope and pray that if I continue to try to improve myself and be an even better mother each day that I will be able to have more kids as well someday. I LOVE BEING A MOTHER AND WOULD NOT CHANGE IT FOR ANYTHING!!!


Working with Samuel out in Nebraska